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tallulahgs[Title] Miss Ho Chi Minh
[Fandom] Miss Saigon
[Rating] PG
[Notes/Summary] After the fall of Saigon, Gigi thinks about what could have been. My knowledge of the history of these events is taken entirely from the musical in question and wikipedia, so I'm sorry if I've made some glaringly tactless error.
It is always cold in the cellar.
She wants to sing, sometimes; at Dreamland she learnt that she was good at singing. Other things too, but she actually misses the singing. But there is a line of light at the top of the cellar and any noise will escape into it and then she will be dragged out and no matter how bad it is in here, outside it will be worse.
It is damp, too. Her feet are numb and feel slimy between the toes. It smells bad too - she smells bad - but she doesn't taste the stench any more.
She's angry. Not at them, but at herself. She thought she'd got good at winning, coming out on top, all that. But she knows where she went wrong. She counted on being Miss Saigon and she didn't think about what would happen if she wasn't.
Spending the days manicuring her nails and spraying her hair and telling everyone that she would be Miss Saigon to make sure that they all believed it.
It is not always cold, but it is cold now, and now is forever.
She knows that she was scared, then. She knows that if she'd stopped trying to win the Engineer's stupid contest she would've had to think about what was going to happen once they reached Saigon. She would've had to admit that she didn't know what to do. She would've cried. She hasn't cried for years.
In the dark she remembers the tiara being placed on her head, the smell of the dying bouquet of flowers. She was Miss Saigon, if only for a few seconds.
She refuses to think about Kim, who will have made it out. Because someone getting America through luck makes her spit and she doesn't have the energy for anger any more.
She was Miss Saigon, but how was it worh it when she'd known Saigon had days left to live?
[Fandom] Miss Saigon
[Rating] PG
[Notes/Summary] After the fall of Saigon, Gigi thinks about what could have been. My knowledge of the history of these events is taken entirely from the musical in question and wikipedia, so I'm sorry if I've made some glaringly tactless error.
It is always cold in the cellar.
She wants to sing, sometimes; at Dreamland she learnt that she was good at singing. Other things too, but she actually misses the singing. But there is a line of light at the top of the cellar and any noise will escape into it and then she will be dragged out and no matter how bad it is in here, outside it will be worse.
It is damp, too. Her feet are numb and feel slimy between the toes. It smells bad too - she smells bad - but she doesn't taste the stench any more.
She's angry. Not at them, but at herself. She thought she'd got good at winning, coming out on top, all that. But she knows where she went wrong. She counted on being Miss Saigon and she didn't think about what would happen if she wasn't.
Spending the days manicuring her nails and spraying her hair and telling everyone that she would be Miss Saigon to make sure that they all believed it.
It is not always cold, but it is cold now, and now is forever.
She knows that she was scared, then. She knows that if she'd stopped trying to win the Engineer's stupid contest she would've had to think about what was going to happen once they reached Saigon. She would've had to admit that she didn't know what to do. She would've cried. She hasn't cried for years.
In the dark she remembers the tiara being placed on her head, the smell of the dying bouquet of flowers. She was Miss Saigon, if only for a few seconds.
She refuses to think about Kim, who will have made it out. Because someone getting America through luck makes her spit and she doesn't have the energy for anger any more.
She was Miss Saigon, but how was it worh it when she'd known Saigon had days left to live?
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Date: 2009-03-03 08:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-03-04 02:02 pm (UTC)Gigi was aiming to win the Miss Saigon contest at the club she worked in, in the hope one of the US Marines would fall in love with her because of it and take her off to America with him before Saigon fell to the Viet Cong. It didn't work out.
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Date: 2009-03-04 05:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-03-06 09:56 am (UTC)